Hi, I'm Sarah. I'm 54......... and I hadn't slept through the night in years.
For five years, I woke up around 3 a.m. every single night.
Now I finally know what was waking me up.
Let me tell you how it started.
At first, it was small.
I'd wake up once or twice a week. Then I'd roll over and go back to sleep.
Then one night, I couldn't fall back asleep.
Soon it was every night.
3:17 a.m. Sometimes 3:04.
Once it was 2:51. I remember thinking, "Well, at least that's new."
My eyes would pop open. My heart was already racing.
Then the thoughts would rush in.
The email I forgot to send. Mom's doctor visit on Thursday. Did I lock the back door?
My body felt as heavy as wet sand. But my brain was wide awake.
And right next to me? Tom.
Snoring softly. Asleep in four minutes flat.
EVERY. Single. Night.
I love that man. But some nights, I wanted to throw a pillow at him.
So I did what everyone does.
I took melatonin.
3 mg at first. It helped a little.
Then it stopped working. So I took 5 mg.
Then 10 mg.
Here's What Nobody Tells You About Melatonin...
The more you take, the more you need.
And the more you take, the worse you feel in the morning.
I woke up so groggy, I could barely think before 10 a.m.
I had strange dreams, too.
And I still woke up at 3 a.m.
So I tried other things.
Magnesium. Chamomile tea. A lavender pillow spray that made our room smell like Grandma's closet.
A white noise machine. Blackout curtains. No phone after 8 p.m.
A $90 weighted blanket.
I even tried banana-peel tea, because a woman online said it worked.
(It tastes just like you think it does.)
Some months, I spent more on sleep than on groceries.
And every night at 3 a.m., there I was. Staring at the ceiling. Watching the clock.
Doing the math: "If I fall asleep right now, I still get three hours..."
By 8 p.m. each night, I'd feel a tight knot in my stomach.
What if tonight is another bad night?
It always was.